Archive for July, 2016

27
Jul
16

Buckle Up

Next Monday is August 1. Summer is over. Done. Finished. Really it was over this Monday, but August seals the deal. This week some of it has started with my oldest starting marching band, but the next few weeks will really seal the deal. By the end of the month, both girls back in school and extracurricular activities will be back in full swing. Looking forward, the fall is going to be insane. Football games, marching band competitions, RYSO practices, dance lessons, viola lessons, etc., etc., etc.

And then, there is me. As the keeper of the chaos, I am involved in all the above mentioned activities, but I also have my own life to maintain. In addition to my regular, full time job, I have registered for my fall classes last night. I may regret it, but I am going to go full time. I really want to push through going full time amidst all the chaos.

I have got to get back in the game and work on myself more with regards to diet and exercise. Hoping that August, while being hectic, can be a good starting point for making some changes to carry through for the rest of the year. It is not too late for me to hit my goals if I really try. So, I am going to give it a shot.

My social life might suffer, but I am kind of feeling like there is not a whole lot there as it is. My best friend and partner in crime has become distant over the last few weeks. Such is life, but it makes me sad. Luckily, a few of my other friends have resurfaced enough to keep me from getting overly depressed and the pinup group I am in has a lot of activities that will take place in the fall. I am too social to be happy just staying home all of the time.

Otherwise, I have had a few dates over the last couple of months, but nothing that has led to anything I am overly excited about. The one that I was most interested in has gone silent as many tend to do and as much as I do not mind putting myself out there, I don’t want to appear desperate. I am really not. I keep debating on looking more, but I really don’t know that I am even that interested. Of course, drunken me and lonely me will sometimes take the reins and make me look for a minute or two now and then. But it will take a special person to want to deal with all that I am going to have going on, so not sure I should really bother.

There ya have it. Looking forward, I think the remainder of the year is going to be rather interesting. It will be fun to see how well we can all manage with everything we have going on. Hoping to get some organization in place over the next few weeks and that I can get the girls to buy in to helping out a bit more moving forward so that I might maintain some sanity. Regardless, I think we all need to buckle up we are gonna be in for a wild ride!

 

 

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14
Jul
16

Summertime Woahs

Tomorrow is July 15 and I am so ready for this month to be over already. Frankly, I am done with summer. I want my kids back in school and routine to be restored to my crazy little world.

I realize I am very lucky. Do not get me wrong. But I am tired. So stinking tired. Some of it is my own fault. I can accept that, but a lot of it is the kids. Most of it is them.

First, both of my kids acted like they had to do summer school. They really didn’t need to. I could see where both would benefit and let them. It was not my best idea ever. The oldest has totally screwed around and has done little to no work and it is all due next week. The younger has done okay, but with other obligations and such has not been able to complete tasks required for her class.

The other obligations? Camps. Again, I could say no, but they are actually valuable to the kid. Well, the first one was. The second has been a bit of a disappointment, but live and learn. This week’s camp was from 2-5 Monday to Wednesday. Great hours for a working, single parent, right? Ugh.

We also had dental appointments this week. Initially, it was only to be one, but we had a snafu with scheduling so both of them got to go this week. Separately, of course, because doing them around the same time on the same day is just too much to ask (I did ask). This week we were finally confronted with something I had long expected to hear, too. We got referred to an orthodontist. Yes! Because I have thousands of dollars to put towards the kid that did not realize I had thrown her toothbrush away’s teeth. Seriously. So we have a consult scheduled for the week after next.

Now, not everything is negative this month, we do have a great camping trip scheduled for next weekend and I have been trying my damndest to plan something fun this weekend. The girls are making plans with friends and, up until last week, I had a somewhat interesting social life of my own.

I am just looking forward to the return of regular sleep schedules, a normal daytime routine, and extracurricular activities. I need order and routine. This floundering around on little sleep doing who knows what next is exhausting.

08
Jul
16

Adulting Sucks

Some days I really feel like I am a decent adult. Others not so much. Lately, there has been a lot of not so much. I am sure a lot of it is because I do too much and spread myself too thin, but geez. Here are a few of my issues lately. Things could definitely be worse, but these are a few of the things that have managed to make me feel like a lousy adult this week.

  1. I screwed up my accounts. I have money. I transferred money. I forgot about the holiday and left myself with nothing to run on.
  2. In my attempt to fix my before mentioned mishap, I realized that I had no checks. I hardly ever use them so, of course, when I need one, I am screwed.
  3. Road work. Holy shit there is a lot going on lately. Everywhere I go I get delayed.
  4. My lawnmower broke. Well, maybe it isn’t really broken. But it won’t start. And it is new. Like two weeks old. Hopefully, it is just bad gas. Otherwise, ugh.
  5. I might have purchased the new lawnmower for nothing; my dad thinks that my old mower might have had bad gas too.
  6. With my overgrown yard, I am becoming THAT neighbor.
  7. I have not cooked for my children all week and I am pretty sure that there is not much for them to choose from in the house because I didn’t grocery shop last weekend.
  8. I have not gotten to the gym all week.
  9. I forgot my little brother’s birthday.
  10. I have zero focus on my work because of all of the other shit running through my mind.

And there you have it. Just a snippet of the crap that has left me feeling like a sucky adult this week. Hoping that the weekend will help me get things turned around and going in the right direction again. Stay tuned!