Archive for April, 2017


Coming out of the woodwork

April has been a funny month. The few weeks have been kind of interesting when it comes to my interactions with the opposite sex. It has been funny, there really has not been any new people added to the mix-just old ones coming back around.

I took a chance a few weeks ago and put myself out there with Eric, the motorcycle shop owner. We had chatted a bit and talked about getting a drink, but it never happened. I was going to be out one night and asked him to meet me. He said okay and for me to text him when I was free from an obligation. By the time I texted, it was kind of late. He didn’t respond and did not show. The next day he said he had fallen asleep which I can see happening. He has since gone quiet again. I am kind of over it.

The next one resurfaced partially because of me. I was bored and got back on pof. Apparently since I recreated my account, it showed a guy that I dated last year that I looked at his profile. He hit me up almost instantly to say hey which was fine. It sounded like there was a chance he might want to go out again, but he has yet to ask. He randomly said hey yesterday. Taking that as a good sign. He is odd. I feel like I may need to put myself out there with him and try to initiate. However, I have no freaking clue how to start that.

Then, last Saturday night, my younger brother and I went downtown. He is 12 years younger and we do not look like we should ever be a couple, but for some reason people like to think he is my date when we go out. That being said, we went to a bar that I enjoy. As soon as we got close to the bar I remembered that I had chatted for a bit with one of the bouncers ages ago. Just my luck, he was working the door. Well, he didn’t seem to remember me and I was not gonna be that girl. I did not see him again. I did get a message from him the next day asking if I was on a date and saying that he would like to have relations with me. I told him that I was not interested in that kind of a relationship-love sex, but not with random people I do not know.

And, finally, following the bar downtown, we hit up my home bar. There, I saw the guy that ditched me on our one and only date. It was kinda funny. Either he didn’t recognize me or was hoping that I was not going to speak by pretending not to know me. There was nothing for me to say regardless. Hoping that it was a fluke and he won’t frequent my favorite bar often.

So, there you have it. April was at least interesting. Maybe once my school semester ends, I will actually put some effort into finding new people to add to the mix. For now, I will hope to hear from the one pof guy and see what happens next.


Better Sleep Tonight

Sleep and I have not been great friends lately. There is just too much going on for me to ever hit my sleep goal and, when I do sleep, I have been having awful dreams. Normally, I am not one to dream much at all, so the situation has not been my favorite.

Over the weekend, my dreams took a very unwelcomed turn and I started dreaming about an ex. In my dreams, he comes into my home and refuses to leave which sounds harmless enough, but is slightly terrifying for me. While things were not overly nasty between us, I have a lot of unsettled hard feelings as I later learned that he had cheated (he is now married to the woman he cheated with) and really feel like I was used throughout the relationship. These are the dreams which I seem to be most likely to remember and they are actually provoking a physical response-I am pretty certain that I am grinding my teeth.

All this being said, imagine my surprise when he randomly starts messaging me wanting a favor.

I am pretty sure I am psychic. Somehow, somewhere deep inside me, I knew he was about to pop up and my body didn’t like it.

On occasion, I do some freelance work for friends/acquaintances. He asked what I would charge to do a project for him. I quoted him my usual price hoping he would decline, but he has asked that we move forward.

What I found funny happened today. He reached out to me a second time to provide me with some information I needed and to provide me with instructions on how to proceed and to let me know that he would pay me after I provided him with the finished project. He would “drop it by.”

Um, no sir.

You do not get to take advantage of me again. Period. I do not mind the side job, but I will not be providing finished project and put faith in this man to do the right thing.

There will be no coming to my home to “drop it by.”

I put my foot down. I said I would be in touch when it was complete. We would meet, he could review the work and pay me. Only then will I turn over the finished project.

I feel somewhat empowered today. I stood up for myself and took control of the situation. Hopefully, in doing so, I can sleep a little better tonight.

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